Saturday, March 01, 2008

Right Number, Wrong Table

I was talking to Chowder last night and told him he was right. After this pregnancy is said and done, I'm done. I've had enough. I'm crying uncle.

I'm not particularly sweet and sentimental about my lost babies. I never picture them as little angels or being rocked in God's arms. Sadly, I picture them as simply lost. As I was thinking on and praying about this, the number seven suddenly jumped out at me. This will be my seventh lost one. I'm beginning to think that the dining table in my dreams is actually my Welcoming Table. And this dream is my way of visiting with them. Well, this loss will fill the last seat at the table. So, I think it is time to just sit down and eat.

16 comments:

Jenny said...

I'm so sorry.

Jenni said...

Oh Kate! I'm so terribly sorry.

lesleysmeshly said...

I am so sorry.

Melanie said...

Oh, Kate, no. I'm so, so sorry. Many (((HUGS))).

gem said...

I don't know what to say. I really hoped it would be different for you this time. Take care of yourself

Elizabethw said...

Kate,

I am so so sorry. Hugs to you.

Elizabethw

Elizabethw said...

Kate,

I am so so sorry. Hugs to you.

Elizabethw

Mamabear said...

Although I love your imagery of the welcoming table, I was silently cheering on the possibility of dining table. So sorry to read of this.

The Wadhwa Family said...

I'm so sorry. Lots of love, hugs and tears for you, Cakes.

valerie said...

I'm so sorry, too. But I don't think you should make any firm decisions while you're in pain (emotionally) and off your meds.

Big hugs,

PastorMac's Ann said...

Oh Cakes, my heart is breaking with yours.

Lifting you up in prayer.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry my friend. Can't tell you enough how I was praying for you. Will continue to.

- Samiam

KellyLynn said...

*hugs*

Tania said...

so sorry to hear!!! "hugs"

LotsOfKids said...

I'm so sorry.

Mel said...

So, so sorry to hear of another precious little baby lost. Why oh why babies are created only to not ever be born I will never understand.
I hope you feel His presence and supernatural peace in your life right now. Sad for you. ):