Sunday, June 03, 2007

well then...

She's gone.

a week ago actually.

This week has been a flurry of family in and out. My brother, who I rarely get to see. Aunts, uncles, cousins. cousins of cousins. You know, funeral folk. She died last Sunday. Chowder came home from church around 8:30am, which he never does. He walked into the kitchen where I was making a cup of tea and told me mom had called this morning. That my grandma had died. He quickly clarified which grandma when he saw the panicky confusion on my face. You don't think you would be surprised when a woman of 90 dies. but I was.

Now, funerals are done. luncheons are over. and all of the activity of death has come to a close. and yet, I forgot. Tonight, I was looking at my calendar to plan my week, and I forgot that she had died. Tomorrow is Monday. Lunch with Grandma. Dammit it's right there on the calendar. In bright pink marker. every Monday.

8 comments:

shaz said...

oh Cakes. it's never easy, no matter what age. be well.

Jenni said...

Many (((HUGS))).

"Life is made up of meetings and partings, that is the way of it."

Just thought of that quote by Dickens, although it doesn't convey my sympathy at all. May the Lord bring to mind pleasant memories long forgotten of your lovely grandma in the days and months to come.

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

- Samiam

KellyLynn said...

Everyone Dies 3 Times

The 1st Time Is When The Heart Beats For The Last Time

The 2nd Time Comes On The Day They Are Consigned To The Grave

The 3rd And Final Time Comes The Day Their Name Is Spoken For The Last Time

Never stop speaking her name, so she can live on forever.

Sorry for your loss, its always soo hard to lose loved ones.

KellyLynn

Multi-tasking Mom said...

(((HUGS))) I'm so sorry for your loss and I can totally relate to what you are going through.

PastorMac's Ann said...

Aw Cakes, I'm so sorry. I'll be praying for you.

julie said...

((Hugs)) Cakes. It doesn't matter how old someone is losing them is never easy. What a sweet and special granddaughter you were to make your grandma a priority every Monday. So many elderly are left to be forgotten by those whose lives are to busy to include them anymore. You are a very special and caring person who has taught her children well. Our elders truly are a treasure.

Prayers for you and your family.

Melanie said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your grandmother sounds like she was a wonderful lady. I read the post about her you'd linked. I especially liked the part about her volunteering to work with the blind so they couldn't see how old she was!

Praying that God gives you and your family peace and comfort.