Friday, May 18, 2007

My blog and I aren't speaking right now.

It's nothing Blog did or didn't do. It's nothing personal, really. I this. I'm a really bad friend. Blog and I were getting along just fine. I couldn't wait to tell Blog all about what I had done that day, and some days I even walked around thinking about how I would tell Blog this story and how funny it would be. Just like I do with all new friends. And then, well. I just started avoiding Blog. I mean consciously avoiding Blog. I'd click down on my bookmark menu, and there Blog would be at the very top. And I would quickly click on something else as I inwardly groaned, and hope that Blog didn't see me and notice I clicked elsewhere...

I was actually just talking to Dr. Steve (he's Chowder and my therapist) about this on Thursday. He suggested I might have some intimacy issues. (As if!) I am lucky that the group of friends I have don't really need me so much. Oh, they love me and enjoy being with me, and they are wonderful friends, but when I do this to them, they shrug and wait for me to come back around. We've been friends for long enough that they call it my "Hermit Mode." It's very cyclical. But, Chowder found my Blog avoidance rather humorous. "You know, you're really just avoiding yourself, right?" hmmmm. that is rather pathetic.

I can't really explain what happens. I just suddenly burrow. out of nowhere. for no good reason. And then just as suddenly a few months later, I look around and wonder where everyone is and why nobody likes me and I don't have any friends! But, luckily I do. I have wonderful friends. Even here. Thanks Kellylynn for giving me a nudge. As my penance I will post a picture of Chowder and I at Junior and then Senior Prom.

be nice. The 80's were a bitch for everyone...


shaz said...


You know I actually have a draft post right now, of life in trinidad, that you asked about, and I was hesitant to put it up because I knew you were on one of your "blog vacations"!

don't worry... you're missed here too! :)

julie said...

So happy to see that you are back. We all need a vacation every once in a while.

Love the prom dress and the hair..oh my the hair.

Happy Sunday!

Melanie said...

Glad to see you're back. :)

Your prom pics are definitely signs of the times! Did you and Chowder date all through high school? How long after high school did you get married? Just curious!

KellyLynn said...

Glad to see you back, Hrmm i am glad the 80's are over, but they did leave a mark on fashion didn't they! Hopefully you will kiss and make up with your blog, i always enjoy it.

Jenni said...


I should post some pics of Jim and I at the an act of solidarity, and all that.

I'm kind of on the outs with my blog too, lately. Maybe it's the weather? said...

Ha ha. This is great stuff! Glad I peeped through the window....hee hee.