Monday, January 22, 2007

About Resolutions pt 3...

My Spiritual Resolution:
Gain Trust in God and Grow in Faith

Ok...if you have been following my blog at all, you know I sometimes write about my faith journey or lack there of. And you may have noticed that one of the recurring themes is my lack of trust in God and his plan for our lives. I know, I know, being a pastor's wife and all, you'd think I'd have it more together. But, I don't.

Main Objective: I want to do a better of job of seeing God's work in my life.

God is all around me in his blessings. Some days, like most of us, I can only see the troubles, the hassles, the pain, only hear the whining. What a waste of perfectly good blessings. Can you imagine when we are with our children and we make them a special breakfast and they complain about being out of orange juice, or we spend a day at the zoo but they complain that the Monkey house is closed, or we bake them oatmeal cookies but they wanted peanut butter? Sound familiar? I know it does for me. And I know it does for God. Because, I am one of his daughters. and some days I can only come up with complaints.

If I want to combat my lack of trust, I need to start by seeing what kind of God I truly have here. What if I took a moment and actually looked at what he has done with my life? the big picture. Once I see how God works. Once I truly listen. then I can begin to believe. And what amazing things could come of my life if I did truly believe that he has plans for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future. *sigh* that would me s'wonderful.

So, my plan for reaching this objective involves a prayer journal where I will attempt to follow God's responses to my prayer requests. That way I can see and document how my prayers are answered. And my prayers are going to be a bit enhanced. I have started marking scripture verses with post-it tabs and a highlighter. Each color is for a different child and orange is for me/Dearie. This way, when I am praying for each child I can have a scripture verse to help me focus on an intention. I'm really liking this addition alot. It is helping me to spend more time with scripture and it gives me a verse to even discuss with one of the kids if they are having difficulty in a certain area.

Now, I tend to fall through on the follow-through, but even sporadic spurts will help me see that bigger picture unfolding.
and then.
perhaps.
I will be free.

4 comments:

julie said...

Don't be so hard on yourself. For some of us trust doesn't come as easily as for others.

I read all of your resolutions and from one mom to another whith lots of kids and a crazy life I can only suggest on thing: The Crock Pot. This has been my savior over the past few months and their are so many more recipes than their used to be.

Blessings,
Julie

Cakes said...

yeah... I tried the crockpot thing, and Dearie insists that everything I cooked in it tasted the same. grrr. Maybe time to try again though. Do you have a favorite?

shaz said...

wow cakes, I hope that you find what you are looking for spiritually and your trust in God becomes strong. Life is a struggle... I agree, don't be too hard on yourself... I wish you all the best. :)

Jenni said...

Hey Kate, er, Cakes...I've never checked out your blog before. It's really cool! Thank you for commenting me on mine...and YES, remembering that our children are God's first and foremost is a lesson that's hard to learn. I'm putting you in my blogroll.